Mina Witteman – author | editor | teacher of creative writing

Gone Writing – Day 39

Posted on February 9, 2016

Is there no end to this writing trip?

Actually, there is. I have one more week to go before I fly home to settle back at my desk in Amsterdam, where – I hope – the line edits for my new Dutch middle grade Boreas en de duizend eilanden (Boreas and the Thousand Island) will be waiting for me.

 

Am I excited to go back home?

I have mixed feelings. It’ll be great to wander around in my own house again, to sleep in my own bed, to eat the delicious spelt bread from the store around the corner, and above all it will be absolutely fabulous to see my favorite curly-headed boy in real life again. Skyping and texting is an excellent way to keep in touch but it isn’t the same as the real face-to-face thing. I’m looking forward to hugging him.

 

So, where do the mixed feelings come in?

I haven’t finished the manuscript. I know I still have one week to go but that might not be enough and I have my beta readers lined up. Don’t want to disappoint them. Or myself. So, I’ll be writing my fingers blue this coming week. The story ending has formed in my head and it’ll be just a matter of pounding out the words. Tricky thing is, when I pound out words, my characters sometimes surprise me by changing direction, as if their true North suddenly moved. I will need all my navigation skills to hold a steady course and not let the story divert.

And should I stray, I will call upon my muse to whip up a good storm to blow me back on course.

 

 

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Gone Writing – Day 38

Posted on February 8, 2016

Almost 200 years ago Felix Mendelssohn wrote “Every day … I am more sincerely anxious to write exactly as I feel, and to have even less regard than ever to external views; and when I have composed a piece just as it sprang from my heart, then I have done my duty towards it…”. His words were quoted in a Brainpickings article about artistic integrity, a website I frequently visit on my procrastination tours.

Where I would never compare myself to an artistic genius like Mendelssohn his words do resonate with me, because the book I am writing now is one that I write exactly as I feel and one that comes from my heart.

 

I realize that the locations and pictures might have given a different idea but it’s been a hard and mostly sad journey, this Gone Writing tour. I had started the story a couple of times back in Amsterdam but never got it right, never could write it exactly as I felt. The story never let go, though, it kept pressing and pushing and I knew that some day I had to get away from everything to be able to write it from my heart without letting external views hold me back. I’m glad I did even if it makes me sad most of the time. To me the sadness means that I have done my duty towards it.

 

I’m about to write the final chapters of the story and in spring I will go back to San Francisco for the rewrite. Until that time my protagonist keeps practicing her mother’s smile, which she never got right.

 

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Gone Writing – Day 37

Posted on February 7, 2016

green-eyed monsters visit me

smack me left and right

warp my vision

fry my brain in cold-fusioned passion

i try to communicate through the wicked tubes

that connect you and me

i shut my eyes for the devils that are out on the bay today

no sailing for me

no water

no wind

no people

my muse calls in and whips me into writing

forces me to finish this wretched piece of fiction

then slips away like a pipe dream

i end a story that consumes my heart

that sears the rims of my darkened soul

my mind tries to protect

procrastinates

scours the net for snippets of sweetness and love

finds none

i cry for characters that die

my hands slick with blood dripping from their broken skins

i crave the muse’s resurrection

hunger for his twists to bring them back to life

and i wonder how it would be

if i could numb the pain like in years gone by

like sunshine who drowns the evil inside

the girl who steals my life

but may not live it till the end

 

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Lucky devils – San Diego Bay

Gone Writing – Day 36

Posted on February 6, 2016

Signs. Incarnations. You believe in them or you don’t.

I do.

The other day, I told a friend some news that had me set back and she responded not only with an encouraging note but told me she’d seen a hawk that day while thinking of me – vision, power, rebirth, teamwork – and a lone goose – bravery, confidence, communication, determination. That lifted my spirits.

Another friend had some powerful stuff happening at the exact same time I had the same powerful stuff happening. It forged a close bond between us.

 

It happens too when I write my books. While working on my debut Deedee’s Revenge (De wraak van Deedee), a crow with an important role cropped up in the story. The next morning a crow settled on a branch in the tree outside my office. It came back every day and left when I handed in the manuscript.

 

Now, I’m researching the third book of my Boreas series, the middle grade adventure about the twelve-year-old who sails the seas, and in my room is a painting of a maritime signal flag. Four squares, two white and two red, representing the letter ‘U’.

Now, signal flags represent not just a letter but each one has a meaning and this one’s is: ‘You are running into danger.’ Unsettling, right? That’s what I thought, so I quickly ran downstairs to the lobby where more flags were displayed to pick one that was more to my liking. I studied the flags. Would I go for the ‘V’ (I require assistance)? Or maybe the ‘O’ (Man overboard)?

But no. I decided on the ‘J’ flag: I am on fire.

 

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Truth be told there’s more to the J flag than just ‘I am on fire’ but hey isn’t it a writer’s prerogative to only pick what he needs?

 

 

Gone Writing – Day 35

Posted on February 5, 2016

Sometimes all you need is the wind to blow your mind free and the sound of the surf to drown out your inner critic.

 

But sometimes you need trusted friends – a.k.a. critique partners – who are there when you need a sounding board and who will just let you ramble on about your project so your brain can recalibrate and your story becomes clear again. Friends who can relate to the woes and joys of being a writer and who will not judge you when you’re weepy or euphoric, who can shed some light on your musings when they turn dark or block out the sun when the light’s too bright. Trusted friends who can gently guide you and bring some perspective so you can open portals and let your character slip through to take the next steps.

Every writer needs critique partners. I have a few and they are absolute amazing people, who pull me through when the world seems too bleak and who stop me when I go overboard with joy.

 

If you’re a writer and you don’t have critique partners, go out and find some. You need them, those trusted friends.

 

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Gone Writing – Day 34

Posted on February 4, 2016

Do you ever have that feeling that you are really close to something, that you can almost touch it, that you almost have it in your hand and then it slips through your fingers and it’s gone? Like snapping a picture of a turtle in the water.

 

It happens with plot twists and turns. When you’re brooding over your story to find a twist that will bring you the change your protagonist needs to move forward, a turn that you need to move the story forward and keep the reader engaged.

 

They’re fickle things, stories, and they can keep you tossing and turning at night, surrounded by the dark like you are snorkeling in murky waters without even a sliver of light piercing through. It can make it impossible to see a way out, your brain going in circles or even sending you spiraling deeper into the murkiness. Never finding that turtle you had hoped for.

 

Sometimes it helps me to embrace the dark, to plunge deeper into the story, let the brain spin out of control and see where it brings me. But other times I need stop the tossing and turning because it will only drag me in deeper. That’s when I need to get up and just start writing, focus on the next steps instead of letting the big picture bother me, get my head out the murky waters.

Or as my muse would no doubt put it, wade through it and it will see great daylight.

 

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Green sea turtle (honu)

Gone Writing – Day 33

Posted on February 3, 2016

A visual post, because day 33 seemed like the perfect day for a break.

No writing. Lots of thinking. And a re-energizing walk to clear my head after yesterday’s inspirational overload. I told my muse to sit back and relax and I set out for Kailua Beach.

 

What did I see? What did it spark?

 

A ghost crab (Ocypode ceratophthalma): like my skin ghost crabs are the color of sand and you can hardly spot them scurrying around. They also dart away at the tiniest disturbance and I was happy I spotted this one. Took a long wait and the skin on my shoulders is now the color of the setting sun.

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Juvenile cone snail: we studied this one for a long time. Might be something else. Who knows.

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Driftwood with goose-neck barnacles (Percebes): would this be a part of one of those mythical barnacle trees that one day will open to reveal baby geese?

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Underwater sand waves: where water meets land or land meets water and all is different.

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Drip castle: No beach complete without a sand castle like this drip castle that vaguely reminds me of Gaudí’s Sagrada Familia.

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A rope: I leave it to my muse to think of something more exciting to do with this rope than just use it as a swing.

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